• Stockholm Stockholm
    5 year resident, to guide around the local wonders
  • French Polynesia French Polynesia
    6 islands in the South Seas
  • some image Tokyo Tour
    1-day walk around the best spots
  • Japanese Wedding Japanese Wedding
    The dark side of the rising sun
  • Skyline Hong Kong
    Skylines, bar streets, markets & islands
  • some image Fashion shopping in Tokyo
    The best souvenir of Japan is not omiyage
  • Sydney Opera Australia
    Sydney's NYE, Gold Coast & Great Barrier Reef
  • Gecko Hawaii
    Aloha nature wonders
  • Yakushima Yakushima
    Hiking the Princess Mononoke Forest
  • Ishigaki Lighthouse Ishigaki
    Okinawa's shades of blue
  • Yuki Matsuri Hokkaido
    Powder Snow Festival
  • Daikanyama Daikanyama
    Tokyo's SoHo
  • Cosplayer Comiket
    The Biggest Cosplay Event
  • Cherry Tree Blossom Hanami (花見)
    Sakura by the skyscrapers
  • Hiroshima bomb time Hiroshima
    The Bomb & Miyajima
  • top of mount fuji guide to climb Japan
    Top of Mt.Fuji
  • Kyoto & Nara Nara & Kyoto
    Ciervos nadando en lagos de roca
  • Formentera House Formentera
    Mediterranean Sun

10.8.11

Control Freak.

Can't help it, but I am a control freak.

It's odd. Whenever something requires completion, I have a strong tendency to take it over, to drive it hard until it actually IS done. Either when cooking, buying a present or driving a study, I feel somehow responsible and carry the heavy weight over my shoulders - no matter how painful it can be sometimes.

I cannot help it. I can't learn to take things easier. I can't wait and see. I need to have it under control - within a margin of error, but overall solved. It hurts me even more when it isn't. Cause I can't stop thinking about it, once and once again in my mind: X weeks to go, you'd better get all in place. Just like grandma, who would not stop searching until she found a lost thing home. I won't stop, till it's closed.

I push, but never stop. I give my best under pressure, as I become somehow smarter, faster and even more multitasking. But in the end, it hurts me, coz I am human too and without dreaming, smiling & talking... I am nothing.

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