Focus

Sometimes it's good to stop and think...

After these 6 months of travel, I decided to take a week off work:
- Where are you going this time? Somewhere exotic?
- Yes indeed, an unusual place where I'm hardly at... Home.
- Visiting your mum in Zaragoza then? Great!
- No... At MY HOME in Malaga.

I used to hate vacations at home. Simply because we all have a tendency to laze out too much and let time go bye without doing anything meaningful. It's good to relax, but 7 days in a row like this is plain waste of time.

To prevent that, I booked a week at South Dance Experience, the intensive course arranged at my usual dance school - the best in Malaga - Headway Dance Studio. Absolutely an excellent decision. Again, thanks Ale & Juande for arranging this experience. After 30h classes (spread over 6 days) from international choreographers on different styles (mostly Urban, but also Contemporary and Heels) I made new friends and also proved myself that, despite my age doubling 80% of everyone else in the room, I can still withstand this kind of physical and mental intensity.

This week was also refreshing, but in a psychological way. A total disconnection from all pressures and fears that us, 30 year-olds go through - Where do I belong? Am I too old for this? Shouldn't I rather concentrate of "appropriate for my age stuff" like having a baby? Where is my career going? Why am I still in Spain?. A total focus transition back to where it should always be i.e. right now. In life, like in an advanced dance class, blink and you miss it.

Yes, it important to have a plan. Yes, you should steer your life, while making room to enjoy things that make you happy. Even when they seem irrelevant to others (imagine talking to colleagues about my teenage end-of-year dance showcase), if they make you feel good... It's all that matters! This week over dinner with a good friend, we talked about depression and how it hunts "normal people" we know of. This reflection made me realize the therapeutic power of dance, to let go negative emotions, to energise you back to balance. At least, that's what it does for me.

During SDX, Jordy taught us this great choreo on Kylie's "Can't get you out of my head" and Jesus, this class felt like 1000 days of therapy. Guess it brought me back to 2001. The time when my age matched everyone else in the class, when I was thinking what to study in Uni, feeling I could be anything and change the World - at least a little, because everything is possible, as long as you try hard enough. Maybe, I was right then... And it's just time that blurs our eyes and tricks our brain to lose hope because we think "we know how the world works... and that's fairly unlikely to happen"

Lot's of good vibes :)  The right kind of energy  needed to start our summer adventure in Seoul.